Good bye 2013

Well as the year closes, we look back on our year. It's been a tough year emotionally for me.  It's still hard for me everyday to be happy. I have to make a conscious choice to be happy in the area of my little family. It hurts me to hear people complain about their children. What I wouldn't give to be exhausted because my child(ren) have been wild and crazy and wouldn't cooperate. I know that its not all rainbows and sunshine. I know that parenthood is hard, I am not an idiot. I hate being treated that way. When people say "don't you know how much your life will change?' or "you and BJ won't be able to just get up and go anymore if you have kids" No, shit....really? I have no common sense? I can't see that things will be different? I have a very strong feeling that BJ and I will be just fine if we are ever blessed with a child. We are independent enough that it will all be ok. 

Here is to 2014!!! I hope everyone has a great and prosperous year!! 

Childless Couple?

Those words actually came out of my husbands mouth the other day. "Maybe we are gonna end up being the childless couple" does anyone know how much that breaks my heart? No you don't and won't unless you yourself have been here. Have you been unable to give your husband something that your body is supposed to do naturally?

I have done what a doctor told me to do, which was loose a substantial amount of weight. 46 pounds to be exact. I was once told that unless I loose the weight than we would never get pregnant. SO I have accomplished that.

Please don't ever take you children for granted or your pregnancy for that matter. As there are PLENTY of us out there that would love to be in your shoes.