OK, so who runs out and buys a test before their missed period????
Ugh...that would be me lol. However, I haven't in a long while..seeing enough (-) signs will desensitize you from the experience.
When its something that you have been trying for, for so long. When do you give up hope? When you quit tracking your fertile period? When you quit peeing on the stick to make sure that you did indeed ovulate?!?
Is there still not some sort of hope out there? Something that tells you to hang in there, your turn is coming and when it does your not gonna be ashamed of the belly.....oh no....we will be PROUD of the belly! We will be proud that we have finally accomplished the ONE task that we have put so much effort into.
At times, I think.....were would we be? Where would our lives have taken us if we hadn't have suffered a miscarriage? Would we still be together or would our children get to go to dad's every other weekend?
When we got married in 2005, I knew that there was NO way we would rush having kids. I was on birth control and he wore a condom ALWAYS. I still believe in that decision, just wonder if it costs us a lot more in the end? I will be 25 years old this summer. I can't believe it, still childless. Still wondering if I will ever get the chance to feel life inside me. Feel the bond between mother and child, see the love in my husband's eyes as he realizes there is now more to life then just the two of us.
So yes, I will test early, for the glimmer of hope that may be just MAY BE, we did it!
Welcome to the LONG road of infertility. One that is not for the weary or weak. It has made me a stronger person and I am NOT ashamed of whats going on, just ready to move on with LIFE.
Waiting to take a test is the worst! I'm usually on time but sometimes I'm a week or two late like last month. I'm convinced my lady parts have their own conscienceness and like to mess with me and get my hopes up. My doctor says to wait two weeks before testing but how can you wait that long! But of course after I took the test, I got my visit the next day. With having an inconsistent cycle thrown in the mix, how am I supposed to figure out when I'm ovulating?
ReplyDeleteI tried using ovulation kits for 3 months. I kept getting negative results but then had a positive blood test saying I did actually ovulate for the month. I stopped using them after that. Maybe I was doing it wrong, who knows. I might try them again but not sure.
Stay strong! I know it's hard at times. I hope things all work out!
Oh I know!!!! You know in High School we are taught, don't have sex or you will get pregnant! OH if only it were that easy! =)
ReplyDeleteI use the clearblue ovulation tests. I either get a O or a :) O means no and :) means yes. I have always gotten a positive around the same time every month and its right in the middle of my cycle...if I got my :) on day 17 then I ovulated on the 18th and will have a 36 day cycle. =)Or in this last cycle I got my :) on the 12th cd so I ovulated on the 13th cd so I had a 26 day cycle. I have done it for 3 cycles and will probably continue to do it just to be on the safe side.
I will probably not test early anymore. I started before I could even use one of the ones I bought Monday.
Good luck!!! =)
I might have to try that brand because it sounds like it's a digital test. I was using the regular, "match the two lines" kits and it's so hard to judge!
ReplyDeleteYes ma'am they are digital and much easier to read. I don't want to use the other ones afraid I will think I didnt ovulate when really I did. :)
ReplyDelete