Clomid....first round

My doctor put me on 50mg of clomid to hopefully make me ovulate sooner in my cycle. I needed to get a positive opk on day 13, since your LH surge peaks 24/48 hours prior to ovulating. Well today is day 13 and no :) for me. :(

I have only two more cycles for this work, if it's gonna work. Bad part is, I have to "time" coming to WY to "visit" around when I will be ovulating.

I could quit work and come up here and focus on starting a family, but what happens if this is his only job on the pipeline? What if, he doesn't like it? You know that's when I will get pregnant. When we have no way to support a baby. He would muddle through it if he had too, but then life would miserable.

Ugh, I just don't understand. On a side note, here is the view from where we are staying in Cheyenne WY.

I will be going home Monday the 30th to try an live life normally. Yeah, that will be fun.

Its ok to cry..............

This is my husbands last weekend at home. Last night was rough for me. I am going with him but I have to be home the first of May, to go back to work. I just cried and cried.....I felt like since I chose to stay here and not move with him that I chose money over being with him. We are renting our house out so we wont have any of the bills. Which I think may really have set my emotions off, because if we don't have household bills to pay for what do I need to stay for??? On the other hand, I love my job (not that its perfect but I don't dread going in every day).........I took my first round of clomid, so that could have my emotional state a little out of wack.

Its gonna be extremely hard for me to leave him when the time comes!

Putting our journey on hold.

My husband has been offered a job to work on a survey team on a pipeline, which is in WY. So even though I have been prescribed Clomid unless AF comes within the next two days, there will be no chance for conceiving this month.

He won't be coming home except on holidays. :( We can't afford for me to go at the moment. That's not saying it's out of the question. It's just not in the cards right now.

My goal will be concentrating on myself to eat healthier, loose some weight and stay BUSY! I am not gonna enjoy the nights alone but I know this is a wonderful job opportunity.